The More You Know

A tree full of toilet paper on a blustery, snowy night. This tree stood very tall tonight.

I love snow. I miss sledding.
I like TPing and other juvenile pranks. I dislike being punk'd.
I look forward to Saturday nights. I dread Monday mornings.
I hope you are looking at this and reading deep into my words. I hope you aren't reading this.
I am good at listening and making others feel comfortable. Time management is sometimes a struggle for me.
There is always the good and the bad, two sides to every story, and an optimistic and pessimistic view on things. Sometimes picking the right side is not easy. Sometimes overcoming being blindsided gets hard and negativity floats in; but truth be told things are better than they've ever been. Do I have a lot of physical proof? No. Mentally I have proof gushing out my ears. Things are changing for the better; I can just feel it.

Mirror in the Sky

"The Old Folks Home" in Milan, Missouri. Don't let the wheelchairs fool you, some of these people are more than capable.

First off, I wanted to thank people for caring. It means a lot to me to know that people will go out of their way to help someone out.
Secondly, to clarify, I do not have a brain tumor, schizophrenia, or anything else that I am aware of. It was merely an inside joke and I realize not everyone understood that. Lately I do jumble my words more, but realize it has to do with nervousness and sometimes carelessness.
Finally, I am going to do my best to not underestimate people again. Especially elderly people. They can deceive and then jump up out of no where and get you. Be wary. Promise.

Thoughts From a Slow Train

Drawings I have been working on for a long time. This is the cover to my new book of life.

Scrap booking may seem like a feminine thing to do, but I find that I enjoy it. Documenting stuff is something that interests me and thats one reason im really excited about this summer. Now I just need some practice in Green City.

schizophrenia-
"It most commonly manifests as auditory hallucinations, paranoia or bizarre delusions, or disorganized speech or thinking, with significant social or occupational dysfunction. "
hmmmm This couldn't be what am destined for, could it? It gets worse by the day but the tumor may have a way of affecting that stuff too.
When morning is coming through my window I try to avoid it like the plague. how quickly this changes. I realize when I really look forward to seeing a certain face I am so much more energized in the morning. Travel and dances and singing songs of joy. Eating ice cream and hiking through the hills we will go.

You are what you love, not what loves you. That's what I decided a long time ago. -Adaptation

On the Top of the Mountain

The hand print of a man who wants his freedom. I will be set free.

The highest highs and the lowest lows. The ride is long. I have my morals in life and nothing will pry me away from them. When I set my mind to something I accomplish it. I have many goals right now, I just wish I could fit school into it somewhere.
The lengths to which we will go to be happy. Oh the lengths.

Bears and Broomsticks

The colors of a personality. Eyes still peer through.

What makes something special? It is the fact that is doesn't happen everywhere and all the time. Things that occur everyday lose that special feeling. Trips would be taken, days would pass, and the phone could barely be used. Upon return, thats when you recognized what was special.

Maybe I'm too old.
Or maybe I'm too young.
The days were turning cold.
And I was having fun.
Dance dance dance.
And do it again.
Dance dance dance.
All the way down Big Bend.

The

The back of the ski rental building. Green on yellow with falling gutters is the current style.

A swift walk by,
My phone ringing,
Your eyes glance my way,
Can you feel my heart beat faster?

Years have Passed.

This is what remains of a ceiling fan. Kids can be so cruel.

As important days approach, my mind fades. As the hands on my clock progress, my mind fades. As the hair on my face grows, my mind fades. As the hair on my head falls out, my mind fades.
Through it all, love never ceases to exist.

Playing Ketchup

50 Years is a very long time. My grandparents had their 50th wedding anniversary on March 7th. For the special occasion I'm going to break my rules and post multiple pictures. It was that special to me.
No lie, this is the first time I have cried in months. I love my family.




I love the old-timey school photos and the hair that kids had.



Original wedding photo.



Holding the cake. Aren't they cute?



The gang. Overall it was an amazing day.

She smokes a couple hundred cigarettes and hands me the keys

J.D.B. on rubble.

Extraordinary is just a little more than ordinary.
I keep seeing bucket lists and things like this and I got to thinking what type of list I would make. Instead of things I want to do, I would rather have a list of things I know 100% for sure and a general set of rules to live by. That, along with 10 new photo adventures, furthering friendships, a new locker note, making music with a bell kit, and writing many pages of history papers I don't care about are my short list of things to do. Be prepared.

Its Alright

The leftovers from Rainbow Basin Ski Lodge. It still has the ability to lift people.

I know it is a high mountain to climb, yet it would be 100% worth it if I could reach the top. Advice varies 180 degrees on what I should do. My dreams at night leave my brain a mess and my heart on fire. I need to make the most of the opportunities that I have in that regard, yet with others I let them slide on by.
You ask if I am scared about the future? I would be lying if I said "no". Optimistic? "yes" and I just want you to be happy. A ballsy move by me has given me the chance for happiness. I hope you are given that same chance.

How many days are in a summer?

Circles of light. If you look close enough they say what I really want to tell you.

The swirl of hot embers and the smell of burning wood make me happy. Keep it slow, but not too slow. The speed must be just right. Will I be enough? Do I want to be enough? At some point in the future I will open up and say the things I need to say. When I say them I will not be happy, but I will be working towards that feeling.
Right now I could use a good TR.
I have plans. Not 100% plans, but plans that I am hoping will fulfill some of my dreams. Five countries in five months. India, Brazil, and the others will either make me hungry for more travel or quench my thirst for world travel.

Let the Beat Control You

L.A.W. standing next to Frog Lake. The colors of life shine through in a real Friend.

You never know what you have right under your nose until you buy a microscope and look in the mirror. One day you wake up and there is a bushy mustache warming your lip.
Great friends are not always easy to come by. I have been lucky and met some amazing people. Thank you for being there for me. The fun we have had is really amazing. Keep loving everyday people.

With your feet in the air and your head on the ground, try this trick and spin it.

The lights of McPherson and Franklin. Unfocused, the circles overlap and share with each other.


New faces Exciting places And a variety of spices.
Nelly and Kelly had a Dilemma. I can sympathize with Nelly. I've never been the type but I might be driving for that change. Westrich.
I am better understanding the power of music lately. It can empower and create and your habits in it say a great deal about who you are. Me? Well I o through kicks where I don't listen to cd's or artists for an extended period. It is because I feel that I have become too much like a message they send. I want to change. Constant change has many beautiful qualities. Others find what they are comfortable with and they stick to those songs like glue. Alphaville's "Forever Young" has been a song that has lingered with me the past week. It has empowered me and I thank the song for that. I am curious to the music that you listen to. Oh the possibilities...all the sudden I love sharing my music. No more hoarding for me.
In other news, the 99801 is sounding pretty good right about now. Freeing, beautiful, and true to my heart. A good pit stop my do wonders for our hearts and minds.

"So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams are swinging out of the blue
We let them come true"