Sometimes in life you lean back in your bed and just wonder "why me?" It seems as though my life would have been better knowing that she never existed than knowing that she's out there, but she can't hear you. Running with a concrete wall never gets you very far; yet it can frustrate you beyond words.
It seems so foreign right now, but I know I have been hurt before. I know that there have been times when I have been myself and not had 1 soul believe me. But it seems like those previous times still can't prepare you for the next time. I'm smart enough to know that each time you are hurt is going to feel like the worst time, at least for a little bit, but it's the actual mental process that won't compute it all.
Maybe it was because I seemed exactly what you were looking for. Maybe its because you have been hurt too many times in the past to let anyone get close to you. Maybe it just wasn't meant to be. No matter what, my fingers are crossed.
I was being honest. That's my written promise.
Comfort music:
Nickel Creek - This Side
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So cryptic! I'm sorry you're so disappointed distraught frustrated confused right now. I wish I ever knew what was actually going on with you, rather than just these glimpses which I feel are intentionally evasive.
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