The best things come in 3's

For the longest time the number 3 has meant something to me that I can't put into words. I can't explain it and honestly I don't even understand it, but the number has a great deal of significance in my life. The third time does always seem to be the charm.
As I sit in class thinking about what my goals are for this semester, I also wish you were here to listen to them. In a lot of ways you aren't living your dreams right now, but I have faith. If it turns out that it is for the best, then congratulations. Whatever happens, never lose sight of the dreams you told me about. Those are yours and only yours. I hope everyone treasures their dreams.

part 2

The transformation of life. by K.B.D

come lie down in my bed
and climb into my dreams
let them take away your troubled thoughts
let my arms keep you safe in embrace

i know the world is cold and harsh
but my dreams are warm and comforting
relax your mind and spirit
use this nap to escape from those things


i'll never let you down,
always,
joshua

These Days

Mystic lights so bright from above. They glisten and shimmer hope down upon my room. I lie here in bed with the cover right up to my head as I think about everything I still have to do. This isn't a story of energy and motivation, but a story of the inability to move.
To be continued. . .

Serenity

The sky is so beautiful in the morning. Pink, purple, and red clouds surrounded by small freckles of stars light up my eyes as I stand here. The air isn't cold, but a bit chilly and refreshing. The birds chirp in surround sound and I know everything will be alright.
These are the days when we look in the mirror and start to see the big picture; our future. While I may have drama coming out my ears, I keep my thoughts to a minimum, knowing that it does me no good to lose sleep over something I have no control over.
When my life is at a high, I try to keep in mind that it will all come crashing down with everyone watching. When I'm at a low I know the power I have to make things better and I remember the accomplishments in my life, with more attention paid to the ones accomplished in life #2.
I am at peace with you hating me.
I am at peace with how stubborn and frustrating you can be.
I am at peace with your death.
I am at peace with your decisions to try and be happy.
I am at peace with your abandonment of me.
I am at peace with myself.
I have peace.
I still write in this because it helps clear my mind and I know I will look back on this one day and take something away from it.

"most people cant stand to be alone for fear of what they might find out about themselves"

Can you hear me?

We sit dead in our tracks, soaking up our past accomplishments. Blaze a new path and let no one tread on you.

i sit up when my alarm goes off.
i reach over and turn it off.

when my eyes finally focus, i just stare at the wall. the off-white paint sucking motivation out of my life. this is what has sucked out the feeling.

my clothes are spread out on the floor.
my mind's thoughts are just mush.

my brain pushes as hard as it can, but my legs just won't move. how the hell am i supposed to live my life when my body doesn't have the energy to move?

what do i really have to look forward to today?
this is me signing my do not resuscitate order.

should you knock on my door and hear no response, don't panic. find comfort in the fact that my mind is alive. i'm just trapped inside the body of a Bored Boy.

Am I Caesar?

We have large hair. All of us do.

Creatures of Charge
my cell phone is about to die and i cant find my charger. what the hell am i going to do? i have to find out whats going on tonight.

Our lives rely so heavily on charging. I cant take pictures without my charger for my camera battery. I can't call my friends without a cell phone charger. I need that charger to text her back. I can't write this on my blog without a charger for my laptop. I can't even function very well in a day without charging up my mind and body by sleeping for 6 or 7 hours.
We wait and wait and wait while things rest up and can serve us in our everyday lives. I feel weak knowing that I have to rest up, otherwise I can't be myself. I rely so heavily on technology and sleep.
Being tied to the ball and chain of charging is bringing me down.
Right now my mind is energizing and getting pumped up. I always do this before I do something risky. By Saturday I'll either be on top of the world or I won't wake to ever wake up.

words to say

A glossy-eyed stare into the future of adulthood. We may not see it, but we are all grown now.

I have decisions to make and unfortunately I am having difficultly with them. I sit here thinking about my goals, my aspirations, my dreams and I confidently say that I will make a huge impact on the world. I am just a bit tentative picking which direction I want to go about doing that. Helping people will always be something I build my life on.
I will always surprise people with my creativeness and use it to inspire others.
Giving advice is something that I love to do.
I look forward to continually meeting new and diverse people throughout my life and learning from them.
I am a freight train. Good luck holding me back.

I like this song. I'm surprised.

I was feeling free in the trees

Bridges, trees, trains, butterflies, and the wind in my face remind me of who I am and the things that are important to me.

Another beautiful day in the neighborhood. These days are filled with bike riding, homework, meeting new friends, dancing, going to class, and exploring haunted houses. I'm enjoying life and am excited for what is to come. I have so much to look forward to.
It seems as usual, when one life ends, another begins. He is on his death bed now and unable to keep food down. He has lived for 8 days now with no food. It is hard to hear about someone you know suffering so much. Wishing they would pass away to ease the pain on everyone around them and them self.
I used to not feel this way, but I now know we are all mortal. Each day could be our last. I'm trying to take advantage of the time I have and trying to not hold back important things I need to say. I still have those words for my grandparents, but those are coming closer to being said. I have been working on an email to someone else for 3 days now, and hopefully I will be able to get that off my chest soon. I still need to thank two people for taking care of me, thank someone else for talking me through my mental processes many years ago, and thank you two for so much. Those are goals of mine.
Have a beautiful week.