Inspiration. You never know who is watching you from afar.
Her head turns quickly towards me when she feels my presence. She looks directly into my eyes with out hesitation and like a robot says "I love you Joshua".
RED FLAG
I can hear something deep inside me screaming that this does not feel right. She must be lying to me. I know it. The first three syllables that spew from her lips are said so perfectly that they do nothing but offer a false sense of security, and only that lasts for a short time. After thinking about the exchange, I feel very contemplative and depressed.
I don't let just anyone know me. I am very protective of my true identity and personality. While I have great friends now, I don't feel as if anyone truly knows me right now. Part of it has to do with my mental macho factor that says I can do anything and that I don't ever need help. Part of it is the fact that I desire to be so mysterious. The biggest reason for the lack of people truly knowing me is trust. I am having a hard time trust people after so many people have hurt me, went behind my back, lied, and abandoned me.
I always move on. I always gain something from the hard times. This situation isn't any different.
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